had an awesome day today!!
- i have a job interview for a home carer, it scares me a bit because ive never done this before pefessionally. but this is the sort of thing i want to do make a difference. plus i dont have a lot of ID and snizzle.. dam; lols. Good luck to me? its on wednesday. :)
- i have bagged 3 bags of clothes today and it kind of feels good to know they are going someone who will love them so much even though they just sit in the corner of my bedroom doing nothing but someone will love them and be so thankful.
- went for a good walk today i hate silence and meeting new people but its all good :) and like i guess you have to meet people slowly. i dont know if this is the start of something or if i want it to be maybe? i dont know but for now no feelings are going in the air or in my head. simply nice to talk to someone who doesnt seem to have another agenda!
- took my dog out today, shes hurt her paw :( but shes going to be fine she needs her nails clipping dont really know much about dogs so i hope shes okay!!!
- my computer got a virus but Jess sorted it thanks Jess!! :D its all good.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmm; feel as if i missed something but i havent right? :/ busy day tomorrow getting the sister soem hair extentions and i have cals and bills and shoppings to do :D
night all watching Family guy.
i havn’t thought about you in a while and your messing with me again you dont talk to me so i dont talk to you.
your a game that i dont wish to play yet it upsets me!!
i never liked you but bam hits me like a kick in the face when i see that. ouch. :/ it reminds me of just how alone i am.
so used and dirty i dont think i could be the girl thats emotionally detached from emotion and sex.
you werent real you bastard why are you so sick to do this to me?
we dont talk and i guess i dont care anymore.
your not mine but your hers..which makes me smile. good times.
tonight i cried. i miss being in bed with someone. i miss the connection the talks. i miss having someone who cares about me. but i dont just want anyone i want someone that doesnt want me for my body but for me.
someone to love me someone worth the effort.